sometimes I wanna be an isurance man
sometimes I wanna be a writer
perhaps I become a politician
but now all I am thinking of is to be a fashion designer
but first need to know how to draw through cpmputer aided software
Time and time again God will remind me that I am serving the same God that create the whole world, the same God that was with Joseph when he was sold and became slave by his own brothers but then God raise him again to become 2nd after Pharoah, in the present time he would be known as the Prime Minister. Egypt was a great ancient country, well respected and well documented in History artifacts. God gave Joseph wisdom how to solve what was believe to be the worst 7 yearS drought in Egypt.
The God I serve will never changed because according to the bible HE is the SAME, YESTERDAY,TODAY AND FOREVERMORE. HE is the same God that part the Red Sea and deliver his people, the same God who when provoke to anger can kill in the 100,000(For example when King David Sin , but the people pay the price). The same God who is great in mercy(For example when after God deliver his people out of Egypt and they complain and God was going to killed them but because of one man Intercession(Moses) God Forgive them.
His is the same God that was with Daniel when he was sentenced to be burned by the fiery furnace and God sent an Angel to protect them, in fact instead of Daniel being burned, the guard who threw him to the fiery furnace was the one burned to death because the burning furnace was too hot but not one scathed was found on Daniel and God raise him to be a powerful adviser in the Government of that present time including are King Nebuchadnezzar(Famous for his hanging garden), Belshazzar(King Nebuchadnezzar son) and King Darius.
God is the same God who reveal future mystery to John in the book of Revelation. The 7 seals, the rapture, the return of God’s kingdom to earth for the final and everlasting time.
He is still the same God serve by many great people even now.. and when I feel hopeless and weak, I know I can rely on a Great God.
Daniel Sim Lim Beng
how to know if someone care and some one is a friend?
write about u on their blog
add your photo on their facebook photo list and put your name on it
comment your logline in facebook and comment you frequently in a positive way in friendster
Ask questions why u write like that in MSN Logline.(Sad or happy)
respond to ur msn chatting
first to say Hi to you
Verbal communication
smile back at you when you try to say hi and smile
don’t stand away from you during any special functions
Don’t give you cold shoulder
give you a place to sit
don’t leave you sitting alone and dream while havin supper TOGETHER
You talk but they keep on asking you to repeat over and over again
Help you when you are in touble and don’t leave you alone to die just like that and give lame excuse because I can’t find this or that.
Don’t give u empty promises
Don’t say one thing in front of you and said other thing at the back
Don’t think helping a friend’s need as ordering him to do something
invite you to their special events like birthday(Ya, twice when with other church cell group and dun even know who’s birthday and it’s recorded on tape…)
Dun embarass you in public
Dun highlight what you dun have or ur weaknesses but dun overhighlight ur strength but aknowledge them in Public.
Respect your privacy and dun ask stupid questions… Yeah are u UNEMPLOYED??
People who will called you if they dun see you more than 2 weeks/ok perhaps a week at events u usually meet them
People who will sit down and listen and try to help financially or emotionally
People who dun suggest to you what you already know like u know UTAR HAV job fair
People who encourage you to keep trying
People who dun just tell u u fail but help u dignose the problem
People who simply spend time, shaking your hand, holding your hand, standing next to you, giving you a pat, giving u a friend kiss on the cheek(For girls and guys ok…open minded la sikit …ini era 21st centuary) touch your hair. watch tv with
Sign to know if you are too close or simply no chemistry, or this friendship is failling or the other party has no heart to try… just force to
If we keep on saying the same thing over and over again..that’s boring
People who keep on asking you same question… where you work, when we meet, what we eat, dun la dun go over that restaurant scare jam padahal no jam at all
Ok I am still unemployed? Any body wanna hire me?
Thanks all, Love all, Miss All.
My feelings are more deeper this week and I dunno why
if I feel alone then I feel extremely alone
and I realise I could be with a group of people and yet still so alone
If I feel happy then extremely happy..shed some tears after watching spiderman… but during the screening feels different pula… like someone is trying to answer all my worries.
anyway.. there is good news and bad news
Good news is that I manage to have an interviews with productions house where previously their doors close tight..hopefully their doors will be open by the end of this year but then economy crisis will most probably deepen to an even worst state this year compare to last year and it is expected to slowly regain back its momentum by end of 2011.. well that’s what economist says but some businessman think it can even take longer than that. Till today I still dun understand how FED and American’s bank operate, leaving a huge hole for ppl worldwide to suffered. Normally recession comes every decades once, that is for sure but normally it regained back in momentum in a year half or two years but this crises could prolong the normal duration. It’s bad cos many company dun wan to hire ppl. Some ppl really suffer…. while I was unemployed I think of how ppl have to lit fire in the street, living on foodstamps, no blanket, no car, no sanitation..no nothing… oh no water too… and that’s a first world country. Gosh…I simply can’t believe this can happened.
during this time there are friends who seems to care for me, so called friends who seems to help but ended up with empty promises, like there is this one person who said wanna borrow camera but never heard a single sound from him after 3 tries and after knowing I was unemployed for that time period.
there was another so called friend who wanna hear all my problem but then I dunno what happen he really change. I was so close to share my deepest secret with him but obviously he failed me. perhaps human as friends always failed each other huh.
then there is this particular producer somewhere near Plaza Mont Kiara who do documentary and said want to bring his company to international level but write his own e-mail wrongly to me. I re-check from his website and send my work but never heard from him after 3 tries…This Production house….give me a very bad and extremely bad impression….very dissapointed with this so called producer…God U Please vindicate for me…
then there is another friends who is almost in this line but the reaction I get was really a cold reaction with “Please don’t look for me type” not now, not ever, dun care where you are, dun care what you do, no need to be accountable to me but let me spend one minutes of BS with u becos I just wan to show you I care by embarassing you and telling the whole world that you once work in atl as writer and then now Jobless and can still make a joke out of it…. God u Punish this person.
then there is this one guy really piss off man till today… we were just having simple dicussion and there goes he blow up…he has pride…. his style is that he is always rite… I kind of gauge his character after the first bad experience but to confirm just try another time wah he really cannot be friends man…. everything about him is right and everything about me is wrong even the rational and logic points that I am in the right lane of thoughts.
finally only 3 ppl come back to help me, I am glad they did, of 3 1 help with employment, 2 help keep me company, 3 help me with my finances temporary. Amazing.
I was watching Spiderman 3 in our weekly friday cell discussion. I think the greatest thing is Love becos if there is no love there is no forgiveness, everyone would be selfish and thinks that they are helping you by so called letting you stand on your own feet(There is no such thing, everyone is interdependent, even businesses need partners and sometimes makes ur competitor ur friends). But perhaps ppl dunno how to effectively love that person actually is not hard, love someone is not about what you want for them, but is what they need at the moment and try to reach them through their needs, it can be as simple as holding hands, sitting next to the person, talking to the person, stand next to the person, try carpooling witht that person(these are the basic) which is a good way of evagelism.
If you really want to show love and care that’s when you reach their deepest needs. for me at the moment is a Job, a good stable job with good income Love all
Miss all
Definition of grow up
Is when you stop being selfish and help ppl who are in need in front of you. not just sit by and do nothing and feel sorry for that person
Growing up will go through Emotional phrases becos that’s free well… without emotion we will be robots
Growing up is really to be different from other person, know what is really important and take things more seriously though everything is furtile not the “I treat you the play play type”, if ppl need help, help…commitment to work is to be serious not U say one thing do the other thing…that’s just spoil brats way of living.
There will always be weak ppl not physical not mental but the person itself, and it is the obligation of the strong to defend the weak it’s God command.. help the widow and the poor but if u can’t help or should I say U choose not to help though u obviously has the capacity then wouldn’t u become hypocrites.. going to church and think living in sins and believe in Jesus and u go heaven… there is NO SUCH THING… Believing in Jesus is follow by REPENTANTS…and Grace is given when you choose Jesus’s way, his choice,his truth and follow his way in action… It is never right for the strong to bully the weak..never God’s way and this is what I called GROW UP.
God,
I wanna fly to artic..lots of research center there… I want to touch the penguin, the sea lion, the seal, the whales, the dolphin..I wanna swim but I can onli apung..I wanna stay in the igloo….and stay with an Inuit foster family through exchange program or through work..
I love you God…today with Emmanuel Lai is great..I learned so much from Him…Joanne Poh actually asked how’s my day… Nice..a little tired though cuz last night I Slept in the sweat(Literally slept for two hours)-today the whole day in Klang..Ok la..sorry Emmanuel Lai… today first time but oredi I get pointer from you… thanks man… I try to practice at home with housemate ..thanks again Emmanuel Lai….(Joanne Poh is one lucky girl) but I try to learned a little bit of bond(Yield and Price) from investopedia and I now understand better about leverage ratio, equity and how to caculate them and what leverage is all above and how can it be more volatile… for example the higher the leverage ratio(http://www.investopedia.com/articles/stocks/07/reinvest_capital_gains.asp) the more volatile it is….. I also trying to learn ”PAP” product through their Website…. Thanks Man…
Stephanie Jie Jie thanks for being so patient with me, I try my best ok…Sorry to dissapoint U… I also sad.
Compose by Daniel Sim Lim Beng(CHECK OUT MY SONG WRITING SECTION)
genre: R/B HIP HOP
Title: All I want is just… baby you back
A student studying for a degree in Broadcasting in UTAR, I hope to be successful if not in TV production then in Music composition-rap and R/B genre
All I want is just (4x)
Baby, you back
I have doubt that you,
even read my mail
You never ever return my call
When I want to meet you
You always said,
You have no time for me
Work, work that’s all you know
Huh, strange I don’t recall getting to touch those beautiful diamond rings
when I’m in the mall near “Poh Kong” Jewelry shop
When I talk to you
You don’t even look up to me anymore
You look at the other side
Building that’s surrounded by walls
Like something is in your mind
You don’t share with me anymore
after all these years of intimacy
This is what I get for loving you
and worse off, you don’t feel a single regrets
Chorus
oh baby,
You gotta know what our relationship is base on
You don’t have to offer me anything
(But your love)
cuz all I want is you back…. baby…ooh..
(Chorus end)
Somehow I feel I’m talking to a wall
When I said do this
You’ll be thinking of doing that.
You think this is funny, huh
Let me try it on you back
It hurt, ya it hurt
That’s how I feel,
I hope when I’m gone
it will open your eyes
(asking questions why)
Somehow all your friends
seem more important that who I am
(Who I am)
watching football,
and shouting like a mad man
smoking marijuana and drinking beer
getting high and got drunk all night
Why they are call cool
something I’ll can never comprehend
All I want is just(4x)
Baby, you back
Yeah rite, Mine Buffday..
sTEP jIE THANKS FOR EVERYTHING….
Thanks to those who still remember me on my birthday and bought me present
okie…..Keep me in Prayer.. I need God to be real in my area of Provision…. I need a 5-5 and a half day stable job with a steady income…..God Help me
whass up,
I Pray that I get a suitable job that I can performed so well that bosses and client will be amaze most importantly to give U the Glory God. I pray that I may have the boldness and walk in Ur confidence when I go and find a new job with a new perpective and a great future for me. I pray Step Jie Jie Marry Tycoon and can stay at home or travel in private jets around the world in 80 days and that one day she can drive her dream car Volvo, I pray for myself, I know for certain that God had made me a female partner when he formed me in my mother’s womb, I know God will bring the right Girl for me at the right time at the right place, I know God had placed Key people in order to help me fullfilled God’s Plan and Destiny all my life in this world and in so doing has rescue and restore me so that I am ready for the world to come, I do not need to worry because God U are PROVISION, U PROVIDE for Me a Good paid Job so I can be increase in my skills and in ur tiding.Amen.
guess what it’s sunday again. Let see what interesting things I go through this week..well I am down with flu and sore throat and I really afraid to vomit becos have that experience on a daily basis when I was like 5 years old… everynight cry for mother if want to vomit or Step to teman me to toilet.
Thanks Joshua for adding me to ur blog list hopefully I can get rachel or dan Lion to do that so that we can keep in touch through words that’s written though it’s not words that’s been spoken. Gabriel Lai ..add me to ur blog list if possible… I think ur blog is simple and amazing..hope to hear from u soon and thanks for ur help with my computer..ur showing God’s love already. Joanne Poh and Emmanuel Lai and the rest of cell hope to catch up wit u guys in taman negara/melaka Zoo trip in the future. Emmanuael if can add me to ur blog man!!
God Please see me through… My faith Giving .. U know I given all I can to u… thank God enough money to buy Lunch… and Thank God Almighty for giving me a Miracle so that I can sew my own trousers yang berlubang… wow I love sewing and I love fashion although I look Ah Pek…
Thank God.. Please give me Love… Lots of them… I dun wan to feel sad or alone.Amen.
